It is a great advantage when your mother is creative with flowers especially when you get married. Today at Jonathan's wedding, the flower arrangements were spell binding.They had bouquets of large red and yellow roses and tiger lilies sitting on pseudo mini grecian pillars lining the aisle. It was a such a beautiful event. Jonathan had been beaming from ear to ear since I saw him yesterday coming into the church for his pre-wedding preparations. I made him check his marriage certificate just to make sure that we will not have any nasty surprises. Today I could see Judy his mother praising God and rejoicing in the front row with her hands upstretched and I imagined her joy spread out on her face as I gazed on the view of her back from my seat.

Later I mentioned to Mavis that perhaps I should take up quilting so that I can learn in time to make one unforgettable quilt each as my children's wedding gift. Diane reminded me, mummy, none of your children are getting married yet. I smiled at her and at myself. Isn't it stupid how impatient we are to change the status quo and then look back and long for the 'good ol days'? This morning, I had talked with Calvin and we said our silly things that only family can understand. Diane pampers me all the time accompanying me everywhere. So why on earth do I want to hurry an event that will make me have to share them with one other woman or one other man, that I cannot fathom my own masochism? I should learn to be more selfish and enjoy the day as it is and tomorrow will come soon enough though the thought of being even more selfish than I already, already am is just too bad of me for entertaining the very thought.